I'm so sorry for your loss. My best friend, 9 y/o British bulldog died from cardiac arrest. The vet kept telling me something was wrong with his stomach and it turned out electrical in his heart. I swatted his butt at work that day for something similar also not knowing he was sick and when we got home he just dropped. You can't beat yourself up for that, you had no way of knowing and he'd forgive you. Just remember what it's like to have a friend like that.
Also remember to temper your frustration and anger with those you love.
You never know when your last interaction could be happening, always have Gods love behind your words, thoughts and deeds.
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