Simple as?! Lol! I'm too old to have a "guaranteed" 20-25 years left to properly raise a kid now. I kind of gave up on the idea of having kids in this life about 20 years ago. My "new at the time" wife and I were "trying" to have kids ... then I found her pills. That lie, and others inevitably destroyed the marriage. I felt my window of opportunity had closed. At this point I'd have to find a compatable, willing, fertile woman about 30 years younger than myself in order to have kids. Surprisingly I look young for my age, am in decent shape, financially sound and have attracted a couple pretty women in that age bracket within the past few years but it doesn't feel right. And I don't do fat chicks. My prime time for haviny/raising kids has passed. I fucked up, I should have married in my 20s instead of waiting until my 40s.