I had a similar experience with church as well after my parents divorced. The church got the entire community to shun us kids as if it was somehow our fault. Even back then and before the church I felt Gods existence, and everything that they said in church seemed ridiculous and unintuitive. I tried being an atheist, but couldn't because no matter what I did I felt God's presence. Now I realise that churches and religions have been completely taken over by the jews and are telling a twisted tale of an almighty God who can do anything he wants, but chooses not to and the only reason for him not helping you is because you are an unworthy sinner, goyim. Now donate shekels or burn in hell. I'm glad that Vatican is now openly supporting LGBT crap and refugees and has outed themselves for what they really are. There is no magical sky man flying around and granting wishes and helping people. God as we know it is exclusive to Aryans. God is the embodiment of our will, and we are the embodiment of His will. This is the reality. If you want God to stop evil in this world he can do it only through you, and only the 'Son of God' or Messiah, has such power of will to unite Aryans to stand up agains evil as one. It was like this before Jesus and is still like this after Jesus.