When I was 19 a doc recommended I go on birth control pills because I have stupidly heavy periods. I had absolutely insane reactions to each and every one on the market. The doc would take me off one and put me on the next just because of the reactions I was having. Most of them gave me suicidal thoughts and made me feel generally crazy. After a year and a half, I just told him I'd deal with the periods. They all made me absolutely nuts. I'm also really in tune with my body and I felt "body blind" during the time I was on them. I'm used to knowing without counting when I'm ovulating and when my period is due - I know my cycle. Not having that really threw me off. My sex drive went to zero which was an awful feeling. I my boobs did permanently go up a cup size, though. All the rest wasn't worth it. I never felt like me when I was on it. I can't imagine the other stuff it must have done to me. I didn't have any close friends so I don't know if my personality changed. I went to an IUD, later. I never wanted kids, but no one would allow it. I begged yearly, until I was 35 and finally a doc said I was old enough to know my mind and in his experience it was women with kids that regretted the tubals more. The first IUD was fine and was inserted by a dude who knew his stuff. My second one was awful. The horrible woman was cackling while I was crying while she was poking at me. The nurse was holding my hand and kept telling the doc to stop. Eventually, she said it was in and she was so happy. As I was leaving the nurse was upset that I had to drive myself because I was in so much pain. She said it was the doc's first one. I was in pain for almost a year. I refused to go back because I was scared of that crazy woman. Eventually, when I was allowed my tubal, I asked the doc to remove it when I was under. He never found it, which was odd, but whatever. I assumed it had fallen out at some point. Later I had my gallbladder removed and the surgeon found the IUD floating around in my abdomen. He said it would have worked its way up to my heart. That crazy woman had perforated my uterus with the damned thing. I should have just gone out of the country and gotten my tubes tied.