Sometimes I read your posts and I can feel the madness swirling around inside your head. It is so visceral. I suppose that is an odd choice of words, since visceral means felt in the gut. But I think you feel it everywhere, like I do. There is so much wrong with this world, you aren't alone, I can feel it too. But you have these weird expectations. These expectations that if you just work hard, and do the right thing, the world should act in concordance with your own virtue and mirror your behavior accordingly. And you seem to be getting increasingly pissed off that the world isn't playing your same game. You were led to believe (probably by a Boomer) there were certain rules to this game, and if you obeyed them, everything would be alright. And here you are, playing this game, somewhat successfully, but you know something is not right, you just don't know how to put it into words...