Maybe it was the vax. Now I presume it's the vax every time I hear about someone young dying unexpectedly. Also, Don't get too attached to someone you don't know. A little show of support is fine but let the drama affect you. I sometimes see people doing incredible things for people they think they have a connection to but in other circumstances wouldn't be as helpful for someone really close to them. It's an unconscious avoidance tactic. They fool their brain by choosing a 'cause' with not much implications and with a high rate of 'job done' after they did their good deed. We are guilty of this but it's important to recognize it. Let's say you have a sibling or parent in need of help. It's much more complicated to actually manage to help them and to feel you helped them than to get implicated with someone you don't know but you think you know. You'll send them a shout-out and maybe a little donation and instantly you'll feel you helped. That distance is preventing you from having to come back to it if you don't want to or can't or you had a bad day etc. It's like a fake accomplishment that will trick your brain like fake sugar does. And like fake sugar it's not nourishing, hence the reason you come back to feeling like shit because you didn't accomplish anything.