It looks that way, but he did not. Your father, the thing that has a name and talks to you is just a thin piece of software that lives in the pre-frontal coretex of his brain. The job of that software is to act as a firewall for incoming information and to rationalize what his silent mind has already decided.
Most of your father is the silent primitive mind sitting behind the pre-frontal coretex. It is made up of many ancient systems and their job is to calibrate them selves to the environment they find them selves in. They do this by simply absorbing information from everywhere and absorbing it through osmosis. The problem is that the silent mind is evolved to do this in small tribes living in europe 100 000 years ago because it needed to always listen for predators and changes in the environment and it has to do this without any filtering becuase that is the job of the pre-frontal cortex (what you actually call your father).
Your father did not make the choice, his silent mind made the choice.
You and I did not make the choice to be here. We just happened to have ended up in an environment where our sources of information are not controlled only by jews. They are controlled by a whole bunch of people but none of them can agree on a narrative so it feels like you an I have free will. We don't.
Ever spend more than two months in a foreing country? If you have you will notice that your brain "simply re-calibrates it self" to how the people in that area behave and operate. When you come back, your own people will be foreign to you at first. Until your silent mind re-calibrates it self again and your people are your people and that country you came from is foreign again.
The point is that your fathers choice is neither his own, nor the final one. He will drift in and out opinions depending on theinformation available to his silent brain. This is why you just need to keep on calling and keep on texting forever. Never stop. It is irrelevant if he wants to reply, your job is to keep a homing ping signal going in the huge amount of noise his brain is sitting in. Once you get him on the phone again, you start the process of wearing them down using the technique I described above.
This works basically 99% of thetime.
So, after sleeping for such a long time, hr unexpectedly woke up.
When he woke, he didn't recognize his setting.
He didn't remember falling asleep there.
It was a couch.
Was it a friend's couch? Had he gotten drunk and needed a place to crash?
Was it a lover's couch? Had he gotten drunk and not been able to perform?
Or was it just a couch existing outside of relationships?
Groggy, and timid, he looked around for clues as to where he was.
The coffee table next to him had a crushed beer can on it.
Maybe he crushed it.
Maybe he drank it.
Maybe he built the coffee table.
No way to know.
And just then, he heard a rustle upstairs,
And realized I wasn't alone.
One of your own? That is a great read.
Yeah, sometimes I write
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