I've had a pretty bad run with women and lately for the past year or so as soon as one is interested all I can think is how to get the fuck away from her. It's not on purpose and it sucks and I can't seem to force myself to not do that. Happened again last week and she was a knockout.
On the plus side, if I decide how I can best dedicate my life to the cause I can go in 100% and all they can hurt is me.
if I decide how I can best dedicate my life to the cause I can go in 100% and all they can hurt is me.
I'm in my early 30's it wasn't till then that I decided I wanted children and a wife. I had my "freddom" and decided it was worthless. I was in an unique position. I was with very beautiful women...women who were related to local politicians. My experience showed that they were damaged. And I was damaged by trying to extract popularity by proxy.
Now obviously my journey is different that most. My story though, is to show that I "had it all". I finally took a quiet life and when I "DECIDED" to find a wife, I treated it like a job application, much like i would do to advance my career. I knew the red flags and bent a few, but my goals was a "wife who wanted to stay at home." My foucus was not on career but on my future. I found one.
First date. That's what she wanted. She had daddy issues (red flag). She wore VANS (red flag) and yet I was confident in myself to maintain my frame that i was the master of the relationship. Now, yes, you could be right. 10 years from now I could be fucked and lose everything. Yes.
However, I have a child and I can't describe to you the feeling. All the Black Pills in the world. I would lose everything if it meant birthing this child into the world. I would still repeat the mistakes. Bad runs and Bad women. You can only do your best. Treat women like finding a career. That's all you can do. The rewards though....man is it amazing.
It genuinely is. Don't let politics dictate your own personal happiness...because that's what politicians want you to do...destroy your future. I would know. I was in politics and they are degenerate liars.
It's funny you say that I was also with a DC politician's daughter for a couple years and yeah she was a mess.
And don't get me wrong, I would prefer to have a wife and family and I would be much happier. But I think you missed the part where I said this is happening like an reflex and I can't seem to override it. It's not a conscious or rational choice I'm making.
Rational choice...reflex
It’s not my job to guide you. We obviously have a similar experience, my point is that I finally CHOSE the rational choice and I stopped the reflex to fear porn narratives (and literal pron).
I appreciate this conversation. I just hope you realize that you deserve a child and a trusting woman. And the woman is there, you simply have to chose the trust and faith it takes to find one.
Good luck and have faith in the confidence of your decisions
You don’t want a relationship right now which is ok.
But don’t be a slut maker, it’s difficult but you are ruining the happiness of future men by turning women into whores
Slut maker? You gotta find them pretty young for that and I'm not trying to be Pedo
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