You, of all people, should respect my gym time.

I'm not going to make the post yet, I want to wait to see if I actually get the job offer first because I want to ask Poal's opinion on what to do. But regardless, I will tell you and @AOU here because you ask. God is fucking with me. Getting kicked out of the sober house sucked, nearly drove me insane. Came close to missing my job interview because I got locked out of my new sober house with a dead cellphone. Whatever. Awful week. Going insane with despair and resentment. Go to some AA meetings, admit some of my Sins to God and the Boys. Go to work. Hate work. Work makes me poor. Thought I was gonna get fired because I no-called no-showed Monday. I was gonna call out sick for the interview, but my phone was dead and I ended up locked out of my sober house, so I didn't inform anyone. I think the people at work know I am going through a hard time. I think some of them suspect I may be homeless. Whatever, Ching-Chong is the owner, he is a good guy. I sit next to him, he gets back from China and brings us donuts. That was a blessing, not much in terms of food for me this week. Hate this job, but fuck it, I still gotta try. Send emails that I know will never be read. Hundreds of emails. Get an email. Someone actually read my email. I work with (x). Email reads >Hey Theo, do you have (y)? Our company does not really specialize in (y), (y) is lower profit and you really have to want a lot of it to make financial sense. Thinking of brushing it off, telling her we don't really do it, but decide not to do that. I tell her I can get her (y). Ask her what kind of (y) she wants, and how much of it she wants. She says >Great, I will send you over an NDA Nothing too special here, but usually an NDA is a good sign, it means they are serious about something. I sign the NDA, return it to her. Takes a bit for her to reply, but she sends me some design files and a speadsheet with he EAU and target pricing, along with a link to their BOM management system. Holy fuck, this lady wants 2.7 million dollars of (y). She seems pretty serious about it too. Said she will get me an engineering lead to work with me when the time comes. If I can make this deal happen, it will be the single largest deal our company has ever seen, by a massive margin. It would net me about 70,000.00 USD. And if the deal goes through, her company is also a massive consumer of (x), which is much more expensive and much more profitable. I would basically be able to ignore everything else at work, and focus exclusively on this account, because it would be the largest driver of revenue by a large margin. I spent the end of the week pouring over those files. I found some errors and asked her intelligent questions and overall have been doing really well with the project so far. I showed the files and the speadsheet to Ching-Chong, and his eyes grew wide with delight. There are still plenty of chances for this to get fucked up, I have to rely on the chinks to actually produce this correctly, but I am actually pretty good at informing them when they do not understand something. This is by no means a certain thing, but if it goes through, it would be absolutely huge. Which is why I am so fucking confused right now. Is God rewarding me for my repentance? Or is he dangling a carrot in front of me that I will never taste? It is very confusing, and I do not trust it 100%. Regardless, this will be a huge week one way or another. I just need to keep going to meetings and praying, and work hard and see what comes of it.