>The sincere hatred of my own mind, and all of it's thoughts took me over. >Sometimes you just look at yourself, and see nothing but the vile creature you are, the shit you have become. Theo, you're going about it wrong. You're not a jew so you aren't a vile creature. If you are refraining from diddling kids, being a degenerate sodomite and other truly vile and disgusting (((behaviors))), then you're just an imperfect man. Don't beat yourself up over the drinking because you're not the kind of waste of a person you seem to see yourself as. That mentality is the jew programming that was designed to create White self-loathing and destruction. It is possible to be a drunk and not be a piece of shit. It's all about your attitude towards life. Be true to yourself and realize you are imperfect but not a vile creature. You have inner strength. Embrace it and realize you are a strong but imperfect man and no one can take that away from you. The drink is a useful tool if you understand how to use it. If you drink, let it be a tool of introspection that you use to reveal your inner strengths and truths. Don't use it to beat yourself up for the benefits of the jew. Alcohol is part of White history and helped fuel our greatest victories. God gave us alcohol but it is up to us to use it wisely. You can do this. It's in your ancestral blood.