I seek the righteous path, much to my own suffering a lot of the time because I am consistently surrounded by people who do not share values or principles in line with righteous thinking. Spiteful, aggressive, irrational, hypocritical and/or idiotic people perpetually plague my life and I feel as though I never get a moment to overcome these pains. I have urges to seep into hatred and villainous behavior as well because it is available but I do not because I know it is not right. I put love into the world (and people, by and large) because it is who I am as a person. I feel a great sense of unity and bonding with the essence of things and our place in the universe is both infinitely small but also miraculous. I respect and love myself and my present state because I perceive it as a blessing, but my demeanor and acceptance of these realities lead me to being spat on regularly by people I can only come to think of as demonic or at the very least possessed by cruelty. I see most negative aspects of society as a consequence of jewish led behavior and therefore have developed a sense of grand annoyance to my own presence in the world, being that I am so small, I find that I am quickly edging into a future that is bleak because of forces that are greater and far more evil than I could fathom. I am increasingly cold towards my environment (although I do not want to be) because I do not like what is has become, not because of what it is, but because it could be different if it weren't for the fucking kikes, niggers, and everything that has been infected by these two things. I want to be less cold, but I feel I must be if I am to poke my head out of this rotten place.