For most of my life I did not consider my end. In recent years, having had kids, I've thought about growing old and what may become of me. For a while I thought maybe I'd have some home care at some point, and quietly pass on.
Recently, however, I've realized this is not to be. Given what's going on in the world, I know how I am going to end: I am going to die fighting in the upcoming war.
Maybe it was a recent post about a possible civil war here in the USA. Maybe it's just where everything is clearly going. But I can see it now - it's pretty clear. I know I will fight, because I don't want my children to have to. And I know I will sacrifice everything I am for their good. And that's how it's going to be.
I don't know if I should be sad about this or not. Part of me is, because I don't want to miss my kids. But part of me understands now why I am here and what I am for.
This fight - this war - is coming. I know on which side I will stand. And I know now how I will end.
For most of my life I did not consider my end. In recent years, having had kids, I've thought about growing old and what may become of me. For a while I thought maybe I'd have some home care at some point, and quietly pass on.
Recently, however, I've realized this is not to be. Given what's going on in the world, I know how I am going to end: I am going to die fighting in the upcoming war.
Maybe it was a recent post about a possible civil war here in the USA. Maybe it's just where everything is clearly going. But I can see it now - it's pretty clear. I know I will fight, because I don't want my children to have to. And I know I will sacrifice everything I am for their good. And that's how it's going to be.
I don't know if I should be sad about this or not. Part of me is, because I don't want to miss my kids. But part of me understands now why I am here and what I am for.
This fight - this war - is coming. I know on which side I will stand. And I know now how I will end.
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