You're right. Alienation isn't sufficient enough to describe it. The heavy weight of a burden too large to bear, failure of intimate social, local society, national identity structures, you've got the ones who are frothing at the mouth that you should get it and you're evil if you don't, then the ones who do it and find ways to justify it and resent you for not doing the same(I know that time will come. Because we who don't take it will represent the failure of their willpower and self respect will falter due to them giving in to tyranny. We will be a painful, unwelcome reminder. What good are guns if you don't even have bodily autonomy??? Who needs guns when you willingly surrender your arm to be injected with mystery potion?) I've had some whiskey. Forgive my runons.