He's an alcoholic, he has stage 4 brain cancer in remission. For some reason, every time i call him, he always says he's going to the liquor store, or going to a bar, or going out for drinks with coworkers. Every. Single. Time. Without fail, it's just yet another excuse to go drink. And at some point I felt it was funny. But now i feel incredibly sad, i almost cried today, because i feel like im somehow responsible for this. I dont know how, and maybe im not.
Our mom was incredibly abusive towards us in our young age, and he never was able to shake off the mean things she said. She once complained she should have aborted us for being terrible children. I feel like his destructive behaviors, will just cause a much more pronounced and fast death at this point. It's only a matter of time, before i get that phone call and hear the painful words that he passed away. And yet, it feels like all i can do is just watch from the distance
He's an alcoholic, he has stage 4 brain cancer in remission. For some reason, every time i call him, he always says he's going to the liquor store, or going to a bar, or going out for drinks with coworkers. Every. Single. Time. Without fail, it's just yet another excuse to go drink. And at some point I felt it was funny. But now i feel incredibly sad, i almost cried today, because i feel like im somehow responsible for this. I dont know how, and maybe im not.
Our mom was incredibly abusive towards us in our young age, and he never was able to shake off the mean things she said. She once complained she should have aborted us for being terrible children. I feel like his destructive behaviors, will just cause a much more pronounced and fast death at this point. It's only a matter of time, before i get that phone call and hear the painful words that he passed away. And yet, it feels like all i can do is just watch from the distance
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