Sorry you are struggling. I quit a couple years ago and I am so glad. It sounds corny but being sober really feels much better than being a drinker. I wasn’t even enjoying it anymore but I felt like I needed it to deal with “stress”. That was all an illusion. The drug causes the stress. Once you stop for a few months you completely stop needing it. I hated drinking and I love not drinking. I dont care if I sound like a faggot. Everything changed when I stopped. Well not everything, Im still kinda screwed up, but I really feel much better. Ive said it elsewhere on the forum, alcohol is like a parasite that tricks your brain in to needing it. Its secreted by a yeast that is essentially a parasite. The yeast tricks humans in to feeding it and taking care of it. When you stop exposing your brain to it, your brain resets— its stops needing it. Jews and other psychopaths understand that the human brain is hijacked by alcohol to keep wanting more alcohol. They use that fact to take your money. Any person that sells alcohol is selling a disease that turns people in to zombies that fork over their money for more booze. So people who sell booze are also essentially parasites. No one who sells booze is trying to improve human life, just scam off of sadness and pain. When I could see that I was a zombie controlled by a parasites, it changed my perspetive and I was able to quit because I didn’t want to be a slave to a fucking yeast or the people that use it to make money. Every drink is an opportunity for alcohol to hijack your brain again using your pleasure center. Super intelligent space aliens observing us from afar are saying, “oh no, that’s so sad. They are enslaved by a fucking microbe” See that you become a slave with every drink. Having even one drink is accepting that you will be a little bit enslaved by it. When you understand this you will become disgusted with alcohol and you will quit and be truly free. I want to drink about as much as I want to be infected with HIV, i.e. not at all. Dont be a zombie, be free! But not too free, you faggot! ;-)