Either your inward idea of your self is false, or you live a lie inside a shell. Become one with your mind, body, and soul.
you live a lie inside a shell
It's hard to do when you could literally lose your whole life's work by presenting yourself, as-is, to the wrong person. Actually, I kinda lied-by-omission in that title: my wife knows me as well as I do myself, but that's it. Every time I become one with my mind, body and soul: the demons come out and start trying to derail me. Not gonna lie: they're pretty good at what they do.
Maybe a touch of stoicism will help? Still I use sites like this to vent and I am sure many do. Too much hassle to deal with all the random shitters around.
I always attempted to start reading "Meditations," but would eventually get side-tracked reading/doing something else. It's kinda funny, actually: said diary would motivate me enough to go and do some shit, so I'd forget to finish reading the whole thing before even getting half-way, lol. Should probably go ahead and finish it one of these days.
If interested, some links for stoicism as recommended:
Stoic Six Pack - Marcus Aurelius, Epictetus, Seneca https://1lib.us/book/3312807/896cb1
Marcus Aurelius - Meditations of Marcus Aurelius Epictetus - Golden Sayings of Epictetus Epictetus - Fragments of Epictetus Epictetus - The Discourses of Epictetus Epictetus - The Enchiridion Lucius Annaeus Seneca - Letters From A Stoic
- PDF (5.4mb): https://files.catbox.moe/1qt9eb.pdf
- EPUB (1.7mb): https://files.catbox.moe/fb2s7l.epub
- MOBI (2.1mb): https://files.catbox.moe/vtiiq5.mobi
A couple as standalone:
Seneca - Letters From a Stoic https://b-ok.cc/s/Seneca%20-%20Letters%20From%20a%20Stoic
- PDF (8.8mb): https://files.catbox.moe/wdov6b.pdf
- EPUB (1.8mb): https://files.catbox.moe/ifnu9b.epub
Marcus Aurelius - Meditations
- https://b-ok.cc/s/Marcus%20Aurelius%20Meditations
- https://archive.org/details/texts?and[]=Marcus+Aurelius+Meditations&sin=&and[]=lending___status%3A%22is_readable%22
PDF (2.2mb): https://files.catbox.moe/27b47e.pdf
EPUB (336kb): https://files.catbox.moe/jm19p8.epub
Marcus Aurelius - Meditations - Audiobook Summary
- MP3 (28mb): https://files.catbox.moe/vhyktm.mp3
- Video: https://www.yewtu.be/watch?v=Hu0xDtK3g3Q
"Almost 2000 years ago, Marcus Aurelius essentially set the groundwork for Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, which is the gold standard today for treatment of Anxiety and Depression. Truly a man ahead of his time."
Timings: Start - 0:00 1: When you Encounter Unkindness - 1:10 2. Everything Depends on How You Interpret it - 3:00 3. Your Mind Should Sit Superior to Your Body and its Sensations - 4:27 4. Stay Mindful and Take Deliberate Actions - 6:00 5. Don’t Retreat from the World - 7:02 6. Your Opinion of Yourself Matters More Than the Opinion of a Stranger - 8:20 7. Be Open to Correction - 9:39 8. Cherish the Freedom and Liberty of Everyone - 10:17 9. Have Some Self Respect - 11:43 10. Avoid Complaining - 12:35 11. The Obstacle is the Way - 12:57 12. Adversity is Part of Nature - 14:29 13. It’s Through Adversity That We Get Stronger - 15:46 14. Everything has happened before - 16:25 15. Stay Practical and Deal with What’s in Front of You - 17:57 16. Focus on Doing What is Right and be Prepared to Face Resistance - 19:32 17. Do Your Duty and Despise Cowardice - 21:13 18. Life is Short and Death Comes to us All, That Means the Time for Action is Now - 22:10 19. Practice Getting Back on Track - 24:33 20. Look Beneath to See Things for What They Truly Are - 26:05 21. Recognize Material Wealth is Neither a Good nor an Evil - 27:24 22. Express Gratitude - 28:54
Great list, thank you. I'll go through it all eventually.
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