Read Neitzsche. We are caught in the middle of the slave morality of christianity and marxism, which are at their core the same slave morality, but in a secular form. The answer is rejecting both, realizing that just as conservative christians are the same as liberal marxists on matters of racial philosophy, you must also understand that they are just as equivalent on other matters of philosophical outlook, on morals and truths, on life and its meaning, on what goals should be sought after. Neitzsche had the real answer, which rejects both the christian and marxist interpretation of reality, both denying the aspects of human existence that are in fact good and necessary for a meaningful life. Death, suffering, struggle, sacrifice, hatred, fear, all the "dark" aspects are rejected, and thus we ruin ourselves by doing so. We get trapped in false narratives, because of this, we get stuck in patterns of delusional thinking that prevent us from accomplishing anything. Because we are literally blinding ourselves to half of all reality, we are unwilling to see it for what it is, cynicism and pessimism are also more of the same reality denying attitudes, it is you continuing to see the "dark" side for what you werr trained to fear that it is, rather than what it actually is. Just another part of being. Our lives have lost meaning because by drowning ourselves on comfort and feeling good, we have denied the full experience of being to ourselves, so we grew desensitized and deluded, loving pointless lives that may as well be death before we stopped moving. Time to be a realist, there is no good or evil in an objective sense, everything has a place and purpose, a reason for being there. The human-centric epic narratives of both christianity and marxism are absolutely wrong, they must both be rejected, you aren't some player in some epic struggle against evil, there is no greater narrative, and the universe does not revolve around you or any other part of humanity (looking at you, jewboy), it certainly does not revolve around humans as a whole. Typically when people say things like this, they make a silent special exception for themselves or anyone to whom they are partial, but for the Neitzscheans, they actually mean what they say. That is not to say your life is wholly insignificant, though I can hear the wailing already, christians and marxists are often like spoiled children at this point in that if they can't get things exactly the way they want, then they go to the polar opposite extreme, which is also untrue (and obviously so), they refuse to accept things the way they are. Your life has significance to you, and to others with whom you interact, or affect in some way, with death being the annihilation of the self, this means your meaning must be earned, you must actually work to determine whether you are significant of not, and how significant you actually are.