He wears a mask all the way over his nose in public. He makes me wear a face shield which is giving me acne/irritated skin and messing up my hearing for some reason. The last time I wore a mask in public I almost passed out, kept pulling it off my nose and tried taking it off. He told me, “If you love me you’ll wear that right,” but if he loved me I’d assume he’d care about my well-being and not make me almost pass out. I moved the thing off my nose, wore it so loosely it was barely on until we left then I didn’t go out anywhere except family’s house for months after that. Then someone bought me face shields which are still miserable. I used to be allowed to at least go into gas stations without a mask or shield sometimes but now he always makes me wear the shield for some reason?? At least he doesn’t make our young kids wear anything I guess but going into stores or anywhere with them is so depressing. Seeing him wear a mask is embarrassing too, I’m ashamed of him. I told him the masks are emasculating and he got mad at me, said he’s worried about getting sick even though I’ve tried explaining it’s propaganda. He usually agrees that it’s propaganda too, until I told him what I really think about his mask wearing (and forcing me to wear a face shield). I think he knows that and he’s just paranoid about getting in trouble but I’m not sure. He won’t take vitamins, do cardio or even quit smoking to protect himself but he had the nerve to tell me the masks/face shields are for our protection. He reminded me that every time he gets sick it is bad because he smokes, so maybe he is a giant pussy as well as a hopeless addict. He goes outside to smoke so I never minded it much, and he’s been ‘working on quitting’ for 5 years now. Like I said idk if he’s just blaming his shitty lungs bc I called him out on looking stupid wearing masks, he might just be afraid of getting in trouble like he’s said before. Regardless of his reason I’m so done with this but obviously leaving isn’t an option with small children in the picture. He agrees with me on every political subject except this one, provides for us and is otherwise a good husband. I’m furious that I can’t go anywhere without the face shield though, and every time I see him in a mask I respect him less and less. Not to mention keeping me from going out until we got the face shield was unacceptable. I was very depressed and isolated for months. Wearing the face shield isn’t much better, I don’t like having to look at the world through the stupid shield, it makes everything look fake and irritates my skin and ears to where it’s almost not worth going out. I wish we were younger and had met after the corona virus scam so I could’ve seen how bizarrely he reacted to it, we probably wouldn’t have ended up together. I don’t have a time machine and don’t feel like leaving him is right since we have children together. What am I supposed to do?