I blew it hard. Crashed, burned and still flaming. Had it perfect. Friends for years. Super smoking hot, one out of my league if she were a stranger. Things turned unexpectedly in my favor, out from left field suddenly things get super hot with us, nothing physical, just talking. I crash, boom, burn. 2 months later. Old flame, same sort of situation. Unexpectedly things shift high gear. Casual talk suddenly turns into discussions that could fundamentally change my life. Our life. It was perfect, happening too perfect. Then it happened. I crashed, boom, burn. What did I do? The only thing I did wrong in all of this mess was telling them I got the fee-fees. The one effing thing not to do. The cardinal rule. The thing that I already knew not to do but I still did it. dumb dumb dumb. Don't ever tell them you got the fee-fees before they do. Now I lost them both lol. Not a chance in high hell to ever recover. And the wild part? I never started it.