May something of what I write here be helpful to you. First, for those that are older, it definitely was better in the past. The music was better, food was healthier, families were generally better and more stable. Things made some sense. Second, if you are suffering from grief because you worry about where your wife is now, if she is okay, or if she can hear you I recommend reading, "Journey of Souls" by Michael Newton. Third, find a spiritual path that truly resonates with you. If the mainstream religions turn you off, then try Vedanta, one of the variations of Buddhism (that varies all the way from incessant chanting to staring at the wall in silence), Taoism, or something even more esoteric. But whatever path it is, make sure it fulfills your heart and life in some way. Fourth - and the hardest step - find a reason to be in the present. Whether it be to mentor a younger person, teach a skill to a group, sing with a choir, dance with the local square dance club or a thousand other options, find something that, in some way, helps others or helps you join with others. I truly send you my best wishes. We are all better because you are here with us now. May you find your share of happiness and peace. Good luck.