The problem may be "diversity". Me personally, I grew up in a very homogeneous place. Everyone was the same race; ethnicity. Everyone had the same temperament; the same wants and needs. The same things made everyone happy or sad. Everyone had the same annoyances. Etc, etc. Everyone was the same. Everyone was predictable. That's the key - Predictable. Now I live in a "diverse" area. There are "diverse" ideas about what is and isn't acceptable. Others act in "diverse" ways. People are unpredictable. That seems to possibly be what you are experiencing. When you're around your kind; your people - People who think and act the same way that you do - You're comfortable, because everyone is predictable. But when you step away from them and into the "diverse" world, everything and everyone becomes unpredictable. With me, it makes me angry and annoyed. It sounds like for you, it becomes depressing. This could also explain why you take comfort in reading the Bible. It is something that links you back to your group; your people. Look for more way that you can feel linked to your people, while also avoiding "diverse" people. Look for hobbies and activities that are done by your people; your kind. And understand that the second "diverse" people are included, it becomes depressing.