Same here, used to just get by. Now i give advice to kids, im on a board of trustees for the community, active fire fighter, pretty much quit drinking outside some special occasions, and usually speak my mind. Im still working on my employment apathy, its hard to care for a job whose sole purpose is so divorced from real life (fiscal derivatives), it just feels like its all a useless waste of time to me, especially when there are more important things in life.