I don't talk to anyone anymore but personally I'm doing really good. I'm extremely happy in life.
Former military but not cop here, got out in 2019, same here bro. What do you do for work?
I was a LRS in the Army and became a cop about 1.5 years after coming home. After that I did everything I could to destroy my life wallowing in Despair and depression for about 9 years.
One day I decided I was going to like myself flaws, past mistakes and all. From that day forward I have been perpetually happy. That's not an exaggeration either, I literally never feel down. I have come to the conclusion that as cliche as it sounds loving and truly accepting yourself is the key to happiness.
I'm retired now. I got lucky with something.
How have you been doing since you got out? Obviously I'm quite a bit older than you but I know it took me many years to readjust.
Eh, I've been alright. I wasn't a tough guy like you, I was just some pog IT, and I did a shitty job at that. Didn't have the best life before the military, joined in the stupid childish hope it would solve all my problems, it didn't, I got out as soon as I could in a foolish search of the thing that would.
Then I realized too late that it wasn't my parents (well, it was them, but it wasn't after a certain point...age of 15 or so), or the schools, or the military, it was me, as well as the combination of behaviors and thoughts I had been trained to display or think throughout the years.
So for the past ~2 years I've been doing that. Mostly just sitting around being a depressed faggot, trying to deal with the gay emotional shit with the help of a therapist, which worked a little I guess, and "going to school" (actually just sitting around smoking weed, because the schools are all online because of COVID, and I've been capable enough to not really try and still pass through school with a current 3.5 GPA, because it's all bullshit). Mostly I've just been trying to survive until the pandemic bullshit passes, I'm still optimistic enough to think that it's just an election-season scam, rather than some Great Reset. But, I guess I'll have to adjust my plans if the pandemic lasts past february/march or so.
tl;dr: I was a shit sailor and I've been doing shit since I got out, but I've been slowly trying to learn from the various mistakes I've made over the past 26 years of my life, so that I can understand myself better, so that I can make my final career choice (26 is getting too old to continue fucking around) and then go all-in on that.
Going almost straight from the military to COVID lockdowns sucked balls. I moved into an apartment near the community college I'm attending, hoping I could at least find a buddy or two from the VA office to dick around with at the very least, maybe find a dork girl who wanted to "study" with me there if I was lucky.............but partially because of COVID closing the school down, I've just been sitting around getting fat since last march.
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