I guess my life long quest to look for the good was perhaps a consequence of not finding good in my childhood. Everything felt disjointed and disconnected then (less so) and it feels the same way now (more so).
Even the people still left close to me I have trouble talking with and being with anyone if the are not connected to what I consider the real world. We are not in a good place (USA). We are on a precipice of disaster and everyone is frozen like a deer in the headlights including me.
Fuck I feel hopeless and depressed. They could come kill us at any moment and I still bet no one would do shit.
I guess my life long quest to look for the good was perhaps a consequence of not finding good in my childhood. Everything felt disjointed and disconnected then (less so) and it feels the same way now (more so).
Even the people still left close to me I have trouble talking with and being with anyone if the are not connected to what I consider the real world. We are not in a good place (USA). We are on a precipice of disaster and everyone is frozen like a deer in the headlights including me.
Fuck I feel hopeless and depressed. They could come kill us at any moment and I still bet no one would do shit.
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