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I have a rare congenital terminal lung condition, not caused by smoking. i can't even go to bed anymore without going tachycardic, and even the most basic shit imaginable has become a chore in and of itself. according to my doctor, there is no cure, and at best, they can only guess what it is or is not going to do. since the fev1 number is well into very severe (25 - 30%) territory, my prognosis is close to shit at this point.

and yet, nothing makes me happy anymore. i'm just tumbling around waiting for my day to come, and i have no happiness anymore in anything i do. i don't want to subscribe to the lifestyle bullshit of today, i still have standards, so i feel like i'm completely lost. i've been doing some estate planning and getting to know god. and even then, i'm not even doing this for myself, so much as for others. just feels sad

I have a rare congenital terminal lung condition, not caused by smoking. i can't even go to bed anymore without going tachycardic, and even the most basic shit imaginable has become a chore in and of itself. according to my doctor, there is no cure, and at best, they can only guess what it is or is not going to do. since the fev1 number is well into very severe (25 - 30%) territory, my prognosis is close to shit at this point. and yet, nothing makes me happy anymore. i'm just tumbling around waiting for my day to come, and i have no happiness anymore in anything i do. i don't want to subscribe to the lifestyle bullshit of today, i still have standards, so i feel like i'm completely lost. i've been doing some estate planning and getting to know god. and even then, i'm not even doing this for myself, so much as for others. just feels sad

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[–] • 3 pts (edited )

it's super hard finding one these days who isn't a rabid cunt

Haha, this exactly. I feel for your predicament. But have you ever considered looking up a natural healer. Aye i am talking nature medicine. If you can find someone others have gone to and can recommend.. The medical system is not really here for our benefit..

I mean what do you have to lose? In anycase you can maybe find something you didnt know about. And if you find hope, well people have been healed by less.

[–] • 6 pts

I went on a one date, and she complained I didn't bring her out to some fancy place, and decided to cook at home. She wanted me to "show her off" in public, as if she's some kind of revered prize. I just felt completely hurt honestly, because a relationship is about two people loving each other, not what some fuck bags in public think about you.

[–] • 0 pt

Yeah but femoids are irreparable sacks of vanity, selfishness, and hormonal logic.

[–] • 2 pts

Get some medicinal mushrooms like reishi, cordyceps, even psilocybes. Start writing, or doing something creative, If you haven't.