Yep, I'm at about the same in years. Each year has been a myriad of reveals on top of trying to keep up with life, layoffs, California BS, medical BS. So much of it is object lessons, and exposure to people in the same situation who don't see it's systematic. For example my mother in law passed from metformin poisoning after a long bout of dementia where we took care of her like a child. There was no talking to docs about Rx side effects. There was no talking to fellow caregivers about alternatives. That's just one example. The fight to escape the matrix nightmare is a lot grasp, and to do. Don't be hard on you in the midst of it. The fact that each of us is here tells me we have our own little counter system, and what it takes just to keep this connected is a miracle!
Condolences for your MIL - I relate. I believe in God and God's plan. I may not like His timing, but I remind myself that it's done with Purpose. The way He brings people into our lives is amazing.
Omg yes! Thank you! It's been a very hard few years.
Going through the dementia with my mother now - worst part is that she recognizes it. Sometimes I think it might be a blessing to be past that point.
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