You can overcome that. ... I did. PM me
I don't think I actually can.
I think it is part of my character. It's been around since I was a child, and not matter what I do, it still lingers in the background.
Don't get me wrong, I still experience happiness and joy, but I know that any moment I stop doing things well, existential dread is right behind the door.
I exercise a lot, work a lot, try to eat well, although I do drink too much.
Last week I spent one of my days off in my room, and I didn't eat or drink or go on the internet at all. I spent the entire day filled with fear and anxiety and depression.
I hide it pretty well. But it is rare for me to wake up without suicidal thoughts.
Make sure you're not indulging in 'substances.'
I drink, but that is the only thing that has ever helped keeping the thoughts at bay.
To be clear, I've had these thoughts since pre-adolescence. So while drinking is clearly not the solution, it isn't the root of my problem.
I was prescribed a wide array of Pharmaceuticals during my childhood, and none of them helped.
Exercise and writing are the only things, other than alcohol, that ever make me feel better.
I have PTSD as well as a Brain Injury. I was programed to suicide via MK Ultra... I am free from those.. Yes thoughts will come Satan will still try to use them but they no longer have any hold on me they have no power
God can overcome anything. He can help you as he helped me
Mk Ultra? Which University? And What years? Those programs only ran at certain times. Strangely enough Ted Kasinesky was a actual victim of Mk-Ultra. His professors locked him in a room and tore his belief system and world view to shreds as an "experiment"
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