Never put man before God. Rather than watching the news pray and remember that God will win. He fights for us knowing how we all feel just as you. Without faith in the things you cannot see , and in the things the world has told you does not exist because of " science" , you are shorting yourself by saying that the the world that you cannot see simply cannot exist. Read Job and read about the end times. At some point God will be taken away from us and you need to remember to stand up and not to be shaken and lose faith. We are all here selected at this time for a reason. You are not an accident and you are not alone.