Does weed work? Other psychedelics? I mean if you're on the edge, you've nothing to lose. Ibogaine is supposed to help addicts and they often say it resets their brains and they get to examine their life while under the "trip". If the doctors are prescribing anti-depressants, those things are habit forming and if you come off them you end up in a very dark place. I think it was Scott Adams that said when Trump has run out of options he would "shake the box" to provide new options. "Shaking the box" would be doing something crazy to change the dynamics of the situation. Do something different... anything.... especially something that helps someone else... that's a major endorphin boost. Get better if you can.