Sober, you are under stress of waiting for the next round of alk/detoxing from last night. I've been there. Besides, stress and unhappiness is a normal part of life.

I never thought I would quit, but I did, and don't miss it. I was as bad as anyone you ever knew. Always thought I was 'doomed' to be a shithead drunk/doper. Turns out...not. Finally got sick of it all. Hope you get there some day.