It sounds as if alcohol is a euphoric for you. This is genetic. The only advice I can give you is the same one I give the fatties: Leave it on the shelf in the store.
Note that "Leave it on the shelf in the store" is a positive term. If you say, "Don't buy it" you are resisting an action making it a negative statement. "Leave it on the shelf in the store" tells your brain that you are doing something and is vastly more likely reward you with a dopamine hit if you succeed.
Is that similar to "I chose to eat a healthy salad today" rather than "I resisted the temptation of donuts"? Because the former feels like an accomplishment?
Feed all of your alcohol, that you currently have in the house, to the kitchen sink hole. *Positive terminology. Your sink will thank you and reward you with dopamine later.
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