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[–] • 3 pts

Seeing the whole world, eyes wide open, all the majesty and horror of everything all at once without anything to numb your mind and blunt the piercing pain of actually seeing existence.

It couldn't be more gay.

[–] • 3 pts

I kind of enjoy feeling and processing the whole spectrum of human emotion without trying to filter or augment it.

No homo.

[–] • 1 pt

I think he meant that existence is kinda gay.

[–] • 0 pt

Yeah, I was trying to joke about it, but in retrospect that's probably hard to see.

[–] • 0 pt

Honestly part of the reason I drink is because I feel more when doing so. Really enjoy music and it hits harder that way. Then again I've been drinking almost everyday for so long I've almost forgotten what's it's like without. Been dry for 4 days now. Wouldn't say I feel numb. Kinda bland though.

[–] • 1 pt

Same, I never understood drinking to numb pain. I was never an alcoholic but I'd over drink in social situations on purpose to break ice and open up. I thought I was the problem and alcohol fixed it I realise there are different kinds of people and I don't need to fit in with every group now Now I only have a couple and stop, just enough to relax and calm my nerves. Maybe that's all it is, people who drink have too much anxiety? I feel more emotion when drunk with less anxiety, but the hangover the next day and not being entirely in control when drunk is an avalanche of anxiety. With what I know now the last thing I want is to lose my filter in social situations and open up.