Maybe both are to blame, allowing a tv babysitter that programmed your childs mind and instead of like for centuries children working by their parents side and learning about god in my time it was wanting romper stomper and listening to Captain Kangaroo and liking the fool Gilligan on Gilligans island. Having teachers alone teaching the kids and working for shit so your kids had more shit and we stupid like myself and also spoiled. Not going to church, not teaching common sense and logic, no being punished with pain or at least showing them when they messed up bad.
It was not just the parents but us the kids that are to blame, we partied when we should have been marrying, working, and praying for wisdom and forgiveness. We as in me was looking to get laid not finding a wife, not wanting a child, not improving myself, just corrupting my body and soul.
It was not the boomers and not the kids, it was this world and TV that fucked us all over. We weren't taught and we didn't seek to improve so all are guilty. We looked for sex to satisfy that urge in us that was looking for love but we denied it and instead lowered ourselves and I speak of my personal stupidity and sin and stubborness to be the best I could be for myself and others around me.
To ignore everyone and look inwardly at my darkening soul whining like a little bitch. Once I left the house I was responsible for it not my father since I could have called and asked advice but I was to busy drinking beer and smoking weed to care about anyone but ME, stupid me was all that mattered, what a fucking waste I was of a person.
I really hope I didn't hurt anyone to badly in this life. Can't go back and change the past or give myself the advise I would likely reject outright and laugh at myself for suggesting it was smarter than the stupid path I was stubbornly clinging to.
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