>I actually felt myself physically die on the inside for the first time ever. Felt like something shut down inside my stomach and chest, and also it felt like the blood flow in my forearms slowed for a second. I've seen some messed up shit on the internet, So THAT'S what that is! You get used to it. I'm not kidding at all, you do. It goes from that sinking sensation to barely even a dull thud if that. Keep exposing yourself to it and you'll be fine.