The way i see it, i would rather die than ask for any kind of handout or charity. even today, i had the option to ask for help when it comes to some house stuff, or do it myself. and i came to the conclusion i could do it myself. i've also come to the conclusion that bitching aobut my problems to others is a futile endeavor. nobody gives a crap, and they have their own problems anyways, so they clearly dont care about your own. so then, what is it about pride that i'm missing? or like all other concepts, did this one also get kiked to hell and beyond?