I wish they were. But you are tired of playing second fiddle, and hate that you are in servitude to the masters because they fuck, while you watch in adoration wishing that that which is their's was your's. No need to be afraid, friend, but rather a righteous anger is only righteous when one is blameless, and it seems you find plenty of blame on others, especially on the masters rather than yourself. It may seem you have a lack of knowledge, and that is why we all are in chains. When you stand before Christ He will remind us all that we must give an account on behalf of ourselves. We are all responsible for our own calamity.