That's not this. I've been off the sauce nearly or exceeding a year now. Idk, I lost count. Either way I trust my instincts on less drugs as opposed to more drugs. Best I can do, but sobriety is giving me a greater clarity. I just can't be a bitch and a behind the back faggot when nothing is on the line. Some days I'm ashamed I work a job I hate to preserve my marriage. Maybe we're all just fucked up? Or maybe the jews were here and funded to be so on day one? Who can say? These are complex questions as jews would assure you