I feel almost exactly the same way and have had a somewhat similar experience. I just have such a hard time caring anymore. I work from home now and it’s so so boring and I’ve noticed people have really changed.

I’m having a hard time too, so you’re not alone.

What keeps me going is my kids and my family. I almost regret bringing kids in to this world now, but I did, so I have to do everything I can for them. That’s part of what’s keeping me going.

The other parts keeping me going are pure rage at what’s happened to the world and the people causing it. I’m so very angry and I have no real way to let it out. Also that I don’t want to die in destitution. I live a pretty materially comfortable life now because of my knowledge and profession, and I’d like to keep it that way. Better to have choices.

I don’t know if this helps you. I hope it does. Please find a reason to keep going. Find a mission. Find a goal. Being on Poal means you’re a different sort of person than the normies and we need all of you we can get.

Sometimes, when you can’t care, you just need to grind through it until you can find a reason to care again. So grind for now.

Quit being a faggot worrying about jew sheckles and put a baby in your woman.

We are witnessing the decline of Western Civilization so it's understandable to be discouraged and apathetic about the future. However you need to accept that the world will decline during your lifetime, especially for White men and don't despair about it. See it as a challenge to take as much as you can from the remains of the structure using your skills. Move to the smallest city where you can find a decent job. Buy property in a more rural area where you can go for recuperation and prepare to retire there as soon as you can. Avoid the media. Seek out a few trustworthy people. If your girlfriend doesn't support you, dump her. Study stoicism to become more resilient. Accept the need for God to sustain you physically and emotionally. Live humbly and honorably.

Move out of the city. You may make less money, but living expenses will be less as well. You will probably lose your "city girl" girl friend. Don't worry, there are lots of single women out in the country, and for some strange reason, many of them think city boys are cool. Don't move into a rural area with the idea that you are better and smarter than country folk, because you aren't. Nobody out in the country wants to hear how you did things back in the city. If they cared about that, they would be living in the city. In fact, don't be afraid to ask how things are done in your new home. Another thing, if you act a little dumb, (don't over do it) you will probably make new friends more quickly. No one likes a smart ass city boy. A humble guy, willing to listen and learn, on the other hand... Buy some guns. Join a gun club with a gun range and learn how to use and maintain your guns. You will make some new friends in the process. OK, that's a good start. I think you can handle it from here...

Thought about consulting work? Start an llc and just offer design services remotely. Advertise in local papers and do small jobs for residents needing an architect to design their garages and additions and stuff.

how would reccommend I ask for another job offet from them?

Go in. Use these exact words.

"I took some time and distance to reflect on the offer and reconsidered." This is both mature, and reconfirms that the decline was about giving it some proper thought. If they fault you for that, thats on them. Hasty moves aren't worth it.

Or do like I do.

"hey, long time no see. Look I know I said no, but I've decided to shamelessly beg for the job. Can you ever find it in your heart to give me a second chance?"

Stare em right in the eyes dead pan when you say this. Don't say "Look I know I turned down the job offer" because that gives away the game before the punchline. Just "look I know I said no." They'll be asking who you are, and you'll be finishing the sentence before they can even answer the question.

Ninety nine percent of the time they're stuck in corporate-robot mode making decisions on policy. Because of that you should be honest. Be straightforward. Most of all, be human and make them feel human.

It's a conversation, not life or death.

Thats how you build rapport.

As to the seeming pointlessness of it all, can say a lot of us experienced the same.

Lot of people left jobs over the masks. The demands for jabs from woke bosses. Or 'social' distancing. Whats the point if you know there will just be more lockdowns and they'll try and force all that shit on everyone again.

The way I see it is a lot of people are at the point of, if they ever have to decide between endless disinfecting, distancing, jabs, and the masks ever again, or their job, the u.s. government and western governments won't like the some of the public decides to put on.

Do you execise? Get a heavy bag, learn to wrap your hands, watch some boxing howto videos. (videos are fine for getting started with footwork etc.). Go slow. Don't break your hands or wrists.

Change your body chemistry through brute force and then ride that wave until you get your head on straight. I'm serious.

I'm not currently where are but I've been there before. I used to travel when I got like that but, as they say, "Wherever you go ... there you are."

Try being right in the middle of a career change and then be hit with all the covid bs. I still haven't recovered and I'm so far out of my last career that I get overlooked because of.

>P.S. I turned down another company for a job, how would reccommend I ask for another job offet from them?

It's a door that was never fully closed. Reach back out and tell them you'd like to join their team.

I feel ya, bro. I'm in a similar position. Stopped caring about two years ago. Losing tons of money due to inflation and house prices are through the roof. Thinking just buying a small house in the middle of nowhere, quit my job and become a hermit.

I am in the same mindset. So much I'm selling my business and retiring at 42.