I am rarely unhappy. I don't let globohomo take the joys I do have away from me.

Happiness is a warm gun.

I look at it this way. Yes. If you consider happy as defined as 'satisfied' then many can realize they are happy (satisfied) with where they are at right now and not worry they need to seek for happiness. It doesn't take much to be satisfied-happy.

If you think happy means emotional excitement and elation etc, then you might spend your life trying to convince yourself that you're not happy unless feeling certain emotions and then you'd be searching for those emotions from sex, drugs, alcohol, adventure, adrenaline constantly to generate enough feelings to convince yourself you have emotions-happiness.

I’m trying real hard Ringo to be the shepherd. It’s hard to be truly happy and at peace in this constant fucking clown world surrounded by fools and sheep.

I think everyday about suicide and Hell.

I'd gladly commit suicide if I was guaranteed nonexistentce.

But even if there is a small chance that Hell exists, I will certainly go there.

I think nonexistentce is preferable to existing.

I'm still uncertain if Jesus actually exists, but that doesn't because he lives in my Heart.

I just want everyone to die and not have to go to Hell. If you feel any other way, you're a coward.

Always happy. Being happy is just turning on the brain subsystems that handle that state of mind. However, this isn't necessarily a good thing. I believe being unhappy and even depressed have evolutionary basis for existing. Being unhappy is NOT the same as being depressed, they are completely different. Being unhappy is probably an evolutionary strategy to force you out of your current territory into new territory. Being depresses is probably designed to keep you in one place and to stop you from expending energy on unecessary risk in times where chance of good luck is low.

Being happy all the time means you are always pursuing new entrepreneurial opportunities and just like in a casino the house always wins and most people that pursue this strategy end up losing.

Just killing time until the inevitable, but obviously trying not to disgrace myself in the meantime. Happiness is beyond me. Contentment and acceptance more accurately describes my situation.

One thing I learned in life is this: If you keep looking for reasons to be unhappy, then you will be unhappy.

I'm okay with where I am and who I am. However, I'll only be "happy" when I no longer have to suffer the faggotry and retardation of this world. It is just fucking insufferable. I don't just mean the things we talk about on poal - actual grooming pedofaggots, social media narcissist retards, peaceful protest niggers, the kikeroaches, etc. I mean the fucking idiots who don't know how to drive and almost hit me every time I'm on the road. I mean the dipshits who can't walk 20 feet to return their shopping cart to the nearby corral. I mean the ugly fat whores who talk obnoxiously on their phones when standing in line right behind you. It is just endless stupidity from stupid, selfish, self-absorbed shitheads.

To quite Daniel Plainview in There Will Be Blood, "I look at people and I see nothing worth liking."

Or better, to quote Dr. Cox in Scrubs, "People are bastard coated bastards with bastard filling."

I don't know. I'm military and just had my covid waiver denied last week. I haven't been sleeping right for months and I don't know if it's stress or something else. Whenever I'm too tired from lack of sleep, I tend to think about Afghanistan and my coworkers who were there with me.

After three separate people sincerely asked if I was okay within the span of a week I finally bit the bullet and talked some military councilors. I just had my initial contact on Friday.

Thank God I have good coworkers that have been cheering me on during this vax bullshit, and my superiors too. I can't imagine how soul crushing it is for others in similar situations who have no support at work and have their direct leadership fighting them as well.