Here i am asking for advice on my throwaway again.. i don’t know what to do here. i wanted to homeschool our kids, keep them out of daycare ect. and i know that statistically they’re more likely to fail without their dad. not to mention single moms are a joke. i’ve tried to enjoy the good moments and pretend the bad isn’t happening for years. but i get yelled at over stupid stuff almost daily, hit a few times a month at least. i’ve been hit nearly every holiday for years, especially on christmas. i’ve had so many lumps on my head, probably a few broken fingers, giant bruises, ect. he’s choked me. dragged me around by my hair. dumped full trash cans with heavy stuff on me. i can’t even list it all. he’s horrible. i’m dreading the holidays. this can’t be how my life was supposed to go. i need advice.
this is hidden from the kids so far.. my husband is a decent dad despite how he treats me. For the most part. Decent dads don’t hit their kids’ mom I guess. But he’s so protective of them, actually nice to them, that’s one of the main reasons I haven’t left. i wouldn’t keep them from him if we split, though i’d want them living with me. i don’t believe in child support, and want to homeschool the kids/keep them away from sitters. there’s probably no way to leave. should i continue to suffer silently for our kids or try to leave? if so, how? will i be viewed as a failure like typical single moms, even though my kids weren’t born out of wedlock? i would’ve left when this behavior started but it only started after i got pregnant with our first. i don’t have any family to go to because my parents were abusive as well. i feel so stuck. it’s like no matter what i do i’ll be miserable. stay and be yelled at and hit, or be single the rest of my life with kids who don’t have a dad. my life is a fucking joke. i’d do anything for my kids, i can’t stand being treated this way though. i’ve reached out on 4chan and a couple other sites and got such jewy answers. i know being a single mom isn’t ok, it’s terrible for kids and i feel selfish for even considering leaving. what do i do..?
Here i am asking for advice on my throwaway again.. i don’t know what to do here. i wanted to homeschool our kids, keep them out of daycare ect. and i know that statistically they’re more likely to fail without their dad. not to mention single moms are a joke. i’ve tried to enjoy the good moments and pretend the bad isn’t happening for years. but i get yelled at over stupid stuff almost daily, hit a few times a month at least. i’ve been hit nearly every holiday for years, especially on christmas. i’ve had so many lumps on my head, probably a few broken fingers, giant bruises, ect. he’s choked me. dragged me around by my hair. dumped full trash cans with heavy stuff on me. i can’t even list it all. he’s horrible. i’m dreading the holidays. this can’t be how my life was supposed to go. i need advice.
this is hidden from the kids so far.. my husband is a decent dad despite how he treats me. For the most part. Decent dads don’t hit their kids’ mom I guess. But he’s so protective of them, actually nice to them, that’s one of the main reasons I haven’t left. i wouldn’t keep them from him if we split, though i’d want them living with me. i don’t believe in child support, and want to homeschool the kids/keep them away from sitters. there’s probably no way to leave. should i continue to suffer silently for our kids or try to leave? if so, how? will i be viewed as a failure like typical single moms, even though my kids weren’t born out of wedlock? i would’ve left when this behavior started but it only started after i got pregnant with our first. i don’t have any family to go to because my parents were abusive as well. i feel so stuck. it’s like no matter what i do i’ll be miserable. stay and be yelled at and hit, or be single the rest of my life with kids who don’t have a dad. my life is a fucking joke. i’d do anything for my kids, i can’t stand being treated this way though. i’ve reached out on 4chan and a couple other sites and got such jewy answers. i know being a single mom isn’t ok, it’s terrible for kids and i feel selfish for even considering leaving. what do i do..?
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