Here's the truth of the matter. Harlan Ellison was one of a few now dead Jewish fiction writers who happened to be good at the trade. Being Jewish might've opened doors for them, but it didn't spare them from being screwed, nor did it ensure that they'd have a job if their work didn't sell well to audiences. For all the assumed stereotypes applied against the Jewish, the one stereotype that everyone can agree on, the Jewish never throw away their money no matter how they earned it. Need proof? Ask yourself how many Jews own Christian bibles, because last I knew that book was written by Jews. Some of whom were the last true Jewish priests. As the old black saying goes, "Don't hate the player, hate the game", or in your case, the lack there of. You can't blame a peoples failures and lack of accomplishment on others forever. That's what niggers, homos, incels, and other deranged people do right up to the moment when they get themselves a gun and go on a killing spree. Eventually, you're going to have to accept that you just aren't motivated and determined to be the best you could be.