I could use a good therapist, but how can I find one knowing what that community has done over the past four years? https://www.verywellhealth.com/mental-health-provider-vaccine-5202996 https://www.psychiatrist.com/jcp/how-should-psychiatry-respond-to-covid-19-anti-vax-attitudes/ https://ct.counseling.org/2021/06/white-house-counselors-have-role-to-play-in-fostering-trust-of-covid-19-vaccine/ A big part of how fucked up I've become over the past four years has to do with how insanely isolated I've become and how I no longer trust anyone, mostly because of how I saw people act around the vax. My own fucking father cut me out of his life for a long period of time because I didn't get jabbed. Lifelong friends no longer talk to me. And now that it has become clear that the vax didn't prevent infection or transmission, and I was completely right, not a single fucking person has apologized for the way they acted. These people were fucking vicious. And my isolated mind went crazier and crazier and became more and more dependent on alcohol. I'd love to talk to a therapist about this shit, but they are all vaccinated boot-lickers. It is fucked.