I am a very weak man, driven by a deep-seeded hatred of everything that I am, everything I feel, and all the actions I have taken during my poorly conceived life. I don't consider what you said to be an insult, I consider it to be an accurate assessment. My lack of control over alcohol is a direct result of my own self loathing. I dislike thinking with a clear and sober mind because it leads to clear and sober conclusions, and those conclusion are that my misery in inevitable and well earned.