I hate that I have a muffin top. I absolutely know better, and despite intermittent fasting and regular running and trips to the gym (1 mile warmup, an hour on chest day, 5k tonight close out, and 30 minutes in the sauna), I still eat shit at night and get awful sleep. Stress is an absolute bitch. So much stress - stress at work, family, how to raise kids right in this world, retirement planning, and being overweight…it’s a fucking killer. I don’t sleep nearly enough, I work way too much only to see diversity niggers get promoted over me. I ducking screen-shot a presentation some VPs gave the other day highlighting their intention to drive up diversity numbers. I fucking slave away to watch them tell me my skin is the wrong color in my own fucking homeland…the land my ancestors tamed and built from scratch. So yeah, I need to drop 15-20. I’m trying and I know how bad I look. But goddamn…I’m tired….I want off this fucking clown wheel