Nah m8, you've got bigger shit going on in ur life than that shit. Stay strong for those around you but break down yourself when you have a chance. Grief festers if you force it into a compartment for too long. I fucking hated my father, yet... his death fucked me up far more than I could process at the time. Base whatever you do in love for your people first and foremost, don't get trapped in whataboutism and distractions. Fuck jews, fuck niggers, fuck biden. None of those are incorrect impulses. Just don't lean on em like a crutch. The idea has to be to support the weight of those you love, or you'll just self destruct carrying the weight of that which you hate. Also I'm prob full of shit. Everyone has an answer... some piss pot solution, but the truth is you're gonna feel like shit for a long time and hatred alone isn't enough. What's the point in hating any jew if you don't do it to protect that which you love? I broke down sobbing about my father like 5 years after his death. I never let myself process it past the anger.