aw sheeit

When I first moved here I was an extrovert, and dependent on the company of others, but as months turned into years I slowly evolved into becoming an introvert, and found that 'island life' is far superior to social dependency. Like all such addictions, it was difficult the first few years (to go cold turkey), but after that, it was smooth sailing all the way. Frankly, I don't think anything "went wrong". I consider it a natural progression from reliance on outside forces to self-reliance, from dependence to independence and self-sufficiency. But that said, and since I hate politicians who love to answer direct questions with non-answers, I'll answer your question. When I first moved here I set about making friends for the first couple years, but despite ever intensifying effort, it never went anywhere. Towards the end an acquaintance told me "You're too conservative for the liberals, and too liberal for the conservatives". So using that advice I thought the Neocons would be a fit. Turns out I was too conservative for them. Same with every other group or clique...always something. Towards the very end I was reminded of what my Granny used to say "If you have to make big changes to fit in a group or make friends, then you ain't never going to really fit in that group, and they ain't never gonna be real friends." At that point I quit trying, and just let things go on their own. Either it would happen, or not. It didn't. It was a natural progression from there to here, where I now avoid social interaction, and have embraced the recluse lifestyle with gusto. Loneliness is a very distant memory. It has been replaced with a sort of serenity that arises from the successful melding of detachment (Vairagya), with contentment (Santosha). I detest christianoids that proselytize, so I will leave it at that.

Part of it is too many of us are trying to screw one another over