i feel you bro, the world has gone to shit. we can't have our perfect scene... but many of our ancestors had a shit time and had to adapt to the times as well. the most important thing is that you rebel against extinction by finding your best compromise... the only thing that matters is that you find a European chick and have children. That's the only fundamental that truly matters... and pass on every bit of knowledge and book you can find that isn't written by kikes about your specific ethnicity and also books in general on the celts, normans, scandinavians, slavs, and make sure the distinctions are observed and their respective achievements known.