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1986 Christmas Muskogee Oklahoma

Living with my mother and my stepfather, trailer house and I got to open a Christmas present early from my dad. I tore into my present.

Wrapped in the comic pages of the local news paper, I was so excited because dad was pretty with it in terms of new stuff. He somehow got my the PJ set with Soundwave.

Purple and white with the deception logo and Soundwave with rumble, laser beak, and ravage standing beside him....even had the covered feet....I was so damn happy.

I put them on immediately and was on cloud 9.

Mom asked me to clean up my mess, which I was more than happy to do. 7yo at the time and I had chores so it wasn't new. I gathered all the paper up, tags, and the box.

We had snow on the ground and I trudged right through it and even said hi to Sadie my dog that dad got me when I was born. She was a huge chow. Orange fur that covered her...snow on her nose when she sniffed my clothes as to give approval.

I brushed her nose off and she gave me a kiss with her black tounge.

I took my trash to the burn barrel and tossed it all in after I climbed the pool ladder to reach over the lip and see it wasn't going to blow out....

I walk back up to the door and go to open it....it was locked...so I knock and I knock, and I knock some more. No one answers, and I thought was a game. So I peek in the window off the porch and there they are watching TV.

I knock on the window and try to get them to see me before I duck back under the window...not so much as a twich.

I am realizing its getting cold and my PJs aren't doing much to keep me from shivering. Light turns to dusk and they both never look at me....just walk to the bedroom and ignore me screaming to let me in.

Sadie comes out of her house and pushes me into her dog house with her.....she curls around me and I cry and cry trying to get a reason from her...she just keeps licking my hand trying to console me.

Eventually I cry myself to sleep in her warm love.....

I get woken up when my step dad pulls me out of the dog house by my leg and placement in front of him and asks if I am just a fucking animal....then slaps my so hard I see stars....

Sadie aint having a bit of that and bites the fuck out of him on the hand...he goes to kick her but she moved and is standing between he and I. Growling and ready to do what ever she can tied to her leash....

He gets that mean smile as I knew it....he did that before he would hit me over and over. He walks in the house and Sadie watches him the entire way. Soon as he is inside she whimpers her last goodbye to me.

Links me on my cheek one last time. He comes out and shoots her in the head with his 38 revolver. She falls into my lap bleeding all over my new PJs.

I try to wake her up but her tounge just rolls out of her mouth....no more love to give....no warm eyes that look at me when I ask her why.....just bleeding all over me.

He spits on her and me....looking at his hand...I don't remember what he said, but he slapped me again and mom came outside...dragging me away from the only friend I ever had....ever really loved me in that home.....

Mom slapped me for getting my new clothes dirty and couldn't wash the blood out of them...she stripped me naked and made me do it in the bathtub.

As she went to throw my dog into the burn barrel.

This wasn't for sympathy or something others feel for me...this was just one day in my life, every day there are worse things that happen around this world, don't say something when you see this happen....do something, it can be anything, but please don't do Nothing.

1986 Christmas Muskogee Oklahoma Living with my mother and my stepfather, trailer house and I got to open a Christmas present early from my dad. I tore into my present. Wrapped in the comic pages of the local news paper, I was so excited because dad was pretty with it in terms of new stuff. He somehow got my the PJ set with Soundwave. Purple and white with the deception logo and Soundwave with rumble, laser beak, and ravage standing beside him....even had the covered feet....I was so damn happy. I put them on immediately and was on cloud 9. Mom asked me to clean up my mess, which I was more than happy to do. 7yo at the time and I had chores so it wasn't new. I gathered all the paper up, tags, and the box. We had snow on the ground and I trudged right through it and even said hi to Sadie my dog that dad got me when I was born. She was a huge chow. Orange fur that covered her...snow on her nose when she sniffed my clothes as to give approval. I brushed her nose off and she gave me a kiss with her black tounge. I took my trash to the burn barrel and tossed it all in after I climbed the pool ladder to reach over the lip and see it wasn't going to blow out.... I walk back up to the door and go to open it....it was locked...so I knock and I knock, and I knock some more. No one answers, and I thought was a game. So I peek in the window off the porch and there they are watching TV. I knock on the window and try to get them to see me before I duck back under the window...not so much as a twich. I am realizing its getting cold and my PJs aren't doing much to keep me from shivering. Light turns to dusk and they both never look at me....just walk to the bedroom and ignore me screaming to let me in. Sadie comes out of her house and pushes me into her dog house with her.....she curls around me and I cry and cry trying to get a reason from her...she just keeps licking my hand trying to console me. Eventually I cry myself to sleep in her warm love..... I get woken up when my step dad pulls me out of the dog house by my leg and placement in front of him and asks if I am just a fucking animal....then slaps my so hard I see stars.... Sadie aint having a bit of that and bites the fuck out of him on the hand...he goes to kick her but she moved and is standing between he and I. Growling and ready to do what ever she can tied to her leash.... He gets that mean smile as I knew it....he did that before he would hit me over and over. He walks in the house and Sadie watches him the entire way. Soon as he is inside she whimpers her last goodbye to me. Links me on my cheek one last time. He comes out and shoots her in the head with his 38 revolver. She falls into my lap bleeding all over my new PJs. I try to wake her up but her tounge just rolls out of her mouth....no more love to give....no warm eyes that look at me when I ask her why.....just bleeding all over me. He spits on her and me....looking at his hand...I don't remember what he said, but he slapped me again and mom came outside...dragging me away from the only friend I ever had....ever really loved me in that home..... Mom slapped me for getting my new clothes dirty and couldn't wash the blood out of them...she stripped me naked and made me do it in the bathtub. As she went to throw my dog into the burn barrel. This wasn't for sympathy or something others feel for me...this was just one day in my life, every day there are worse things that happen around this world, don't say something when you see this happen....do something, it can be anything, but please don't do Nothing.

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