Disowned by my family and rest of my own kind for being a faggot and atheist, despised by faggots for being a pooskin, despised by most others for being an alt right virgin Incel, and literally far to ugly to possibly get anyone willing to even talk to my face unless I wear a mask. This one time when I was 16 daddy slapped me across the face for wanting to study music and he forced me to cancel my application for a music tech diploma and made me do A levels in stuff I wasn't interested in. I later took two paracetamol overdoses at age 17 but was too dumb to know that I didn't take enough and for the last 15 years J mostly just lie in my bed as an empty husk and do absolutely nothing but LDAR (lay down and rot). Oh I do try apply for jobs but like I get at most 1 interview per 500 applications, and can't do anything physical cos I also have a crappy joint disease, and no one will give me a desk job cos they think I don't have enough experience with a computer despite spending almost everyday glued in front of one. I need coronavirus to end me.