Like I've told you before, you're molded by your higher self.
You are constantly tested by your higher self, which acts as a fail-safe, either preventing you from or bestowing upon yourself more of the truth. Face your fears head on, enact your will on this place, pass your own tests, and you will see fruits you never imagined.
As I said before, each of us needs a burning house with children screaming inside, a cat stuck in a tree, an old lady that needs to cross the road. Without these oppurtinities for heroism or nobility, we would be archaic creatures, creatures that only pursue survival.
Feel the test. Face it. Emerge victorious.
i'm tired of bullshit, and i'm tired of not understanding. I've done all I could. i'm done doing backflips to entertain people in the hopes that they toss me a shiny sheckle of information. here are my conclusions from my multi-year social experiment. people are stupid, including myself. i'm moving on to a new hobby. I've settled on models. I intend to attack it with the same work ethic and enthusiasm I am known for. at least i'll have something fun to look at when i'm done.
I'm a very simple man. if the enemies to vanquish are impossible to find, maybe they don't exist after all.how would I know? maybe i'm just a man sitting by a phone, waiting for destiny to call. until then I sit. rotting. millions of others are in the same predicament. it likely is the human condition. until it rings i'll just keep punching the clock, until a heart attack, or cancer, or whatever makes the point moot. some cruel twist of biology has made it so I will not fill the father role. some people were just born to take up space until they die. that's okay. its not like my situation is unprecedented in human history. I'm in good company. until I do finally go I'll do what little is required of me, and i'll do it with good cheer. because that's part of my job, too. but what a waste. wanting to do more is probably arrogance, anyway. and i'm told I have a problem with that.
We need to raise the vibration here.
This is how we all leave together.
I never much bought into that whole universal harmonic thing.
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